Heyhey!

I feel a bit bored and my journal needs an update.
how is everyone?

I've got a tendinitis in my right hand I cant draw or paint like I usually do. sometimes I use my left hand for studies. That's quite enough but it feels so odd after a while. I had better to stop before my left hand starts to act weird too P: Just because my left hand isnt practiced as my right hand.
I'll continue my commissions after I feel as fit as a fiddle again!
Apropos, I take that injury as a sign in time. I should hear more to what my body wants me to tell. My body said "Hey, heyheyheyhey, your hand already feels tired, you better stop!"
I want to do more for my fitness again. I'll buy me a powerball or something fimilar for my hand. back trouble shouldnt be a problem too if you do enough against it...Today three friends and me will go for a jog. I want to do that regularly now Ò_Ó! We have to take care of our body if we want to paint and draw forever. arrrgh, I was so stupid but its never too late, is it?

Not being able to paint seriously piss me off! There are so many things I want to try out. I collected a bunch of great photorefs I want to do studies from. I feel sooo inspired this year. hmmm, everyone should have friends to hang out and draw with. It really helps you to get up of your sofa. I think my life changed pretty much. I used to hang around a lot with my schoolmates, wingding'ing every time we could. Now I became a party pooper, some ppl would say I became antisocially, I know that, but I dont really care. It's great how it is atm. I feel more productive in comparison to the past years. And I see the development in my art ( well at least a bit!)
It's october and my mother died exactly one year ago. Getting a different attitude to life may be also a reason why I'm so into drawing and painting again.
Like Oscar Wilde said (in Dorian Gray): 'The aim of life is self-development. To realize one's nature perfectly - that is what each of us is here for.' I see my self-development mostly in painting and drawing. I'm not retired from public life or retreating into my shell again because I found friends who are like me. sharing a passion is awesome. It could be like this forever, but somehow I KNOW things will change and I dont know how to deal with it yet. It's just a feeling and a natural rule of life (that says life changes fast, lulz) that makes me so fucking melancholic sometimes...

When my hand gets fit again I want to draw and and paint again. I want to paint more with subtle colors. I'm aiming a natural feeling in my paintings. Thats a conclusion I get after lifestudies I guess. Artists like Alex Kanevsky or Jeremy Lipking totally make me wide-eyed. awesome use of colors.

I would never write such a long journalentry if my hand would work. Typing with only one hand is pretty new for me, haha.
sorry for the long blabla, thanks for reading!

hugs!